RRRRRR! >: 0 !

I suck when I meet a woman who is good for me!

I don't know why! I chilled with this girl last night, and at first I was kind of like "yeah man, maybe she's not my type" mainly cause she was a teacher, I was a busdriver, I figured most girls worry about shit like that!

But I always thought the girl was a straight up stunner! And after chilling with her last night, I'm hooked.

And now comes the "my own worst enemy part". The doubt, the "losing myself hoping I can make shit work"....the "she just got out of a 6 year relationship, she probably wants to be single!" part. I guess that's the biggest conflict. Because at this point in my life, I'm not looking for a hook up, or a good time. I want a girl that's going to help me better myself and push me to do the best I can!

Let's face it, I'm getting older man. I can't keep doing this bullshit; dating insane girls that treat me like a scumbag. I'm fucking sick of it man. I know I deserve better, but I think I got the same complex as women that date assholes! I can't keep a good girl, cause who the hell knows why? Must be my approach, the way I talk...or something!

But I don't know. I see the warning signs, and maybe that's why I'm worried about it today. I like taking things slowly, day by day, but this girl is a bomb waiting to happen. She's the type I fall too hard for! ANd don't get me wrong, I'm not sitting here saying "Oh yeah this is what's going to happen...", it's just she's got it in her...mainly because she's not a shitty woman!

So let's watch how fast I blow this shit!