Loyalty

Man oh man oh man....

I felt like I got stabbed tonight.

I always learn this lesson over and OVER and OVER again, but never follow it. Don't tell people anything until you're IN LOVE, then you can tell them all the crazy details. Other than that, it's shooting yourself in the foot.

Oh but don't I love living that way? I mean, I am a songwriter after all, I need all the emotion I can get, right?

Not when it's the "right" people.

And I'm hurt by the whole episode that happened tonight. There really isn't anyone to blame here except myself because I opened my big ass mouth too soon, as usual. I just hate the fact that sometimes, when I put in 150% as a friend, it comes out the wrong way, and I hate the fact that I may have lost a friend over it. It really does hurt me.

To me, a good friend is love, loyalty and respect. And I hate the fact that somebody could believe I am disloyal or a liar.