Perspective:

Today I found out something I needed to know. It disgusted me. It made me sick. It made me never want to kiss or hook up with a girl again in my life.

I can't even write it for fear of her reading this. I really should take down the link to this site from my FB lol. Sometimes you hear something about a person that sums up who they are in a nutshell. There are rumors and then there is truth. Rumors are like a game of telephone that gets twisted out of control. But beneath those rumors always lie some small truth.

BLECHHHHHH!!!!

So no more rockstar attitude. I've been doing awesome staying away from prowling women and hanging out with girls withOUT trying to hook up. But this concludes things.

The best way to describe the situation is like this: Picking up a piece of garbage, insisting that it's special, and in the end finding out it is what it is: a piece of fucking trash! Now that may be harsh, but my mind sickens at the fact that I let myself believe she was special. I let my parents actually ENCOURAGE interaction between us! My parents sat her down and told her "he needs a good woman!" and assumed she could fill that role!

WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKK!?!??!

Not my parents fault, I was just as blinded. Just saying.

So what do I learn from this?

1. Respect for yourself. RESPECT YOURSELF FIRST! Don't settle for shit!

2. If something is too good to be true (at first), it probably is.

3. No more settling again EVER!!!

I still feel sick about this!!!!