Sometimes starting over is the way to go....or is it?

I'm pretty convinced that I need to clear the remainder of all cash owed and move out west.

I've been thinking about it heavily lately. I guess I'm starting to grow sick of talking about it and not doing something about it.

I feel that by being independent, I can finally clear my mind and make the right choices for me. College can always come later. The only people who decide that college is the most important thing is "everyone else" and not me. If we only live once, and we're only guaranteed 80ish years on this earth, I can only live by my own standards, and nobody else's.

I need to be where I'm happy. I can do it, and I will do it. I guess more than anything else, I'm just scared shitless of change. I hate change. I'm worried I'll move out there and make no friends. But when I look at the facts, it's just my natural anxiety. I can easily make friends. I can easily bond with people over the Chargers, the Padres. I can find people to do outdoorsy shit with. People stay healthier out west because there's more reasons to get outside than there are to stay inside.

I just have to stop worrying. And move towards this goal. That's all.