Someday

I've been thinking lately. I'm incredibly happy with who I am. I don't know if I'd ever change anything in my life if I had the opportunity. Things are going great.

I strive to be a rockstar. If that doesn't happen, I'll strive to be something else. Somehow, someway, I will be a positive change in people's lives. In the end, I may or may not be hugely significant. As long as one person in the end feels that because of me their life was changed for the better, that's all that matters!

I guess I'm in a strange mood tonight. I don't know what it is with me. I've got like a good glow inside. I feel like everything in my life is going to be awesome. Like, I'm in so much debt right now with the studio, bills...etc. I'm going to owe the studio $25,000 at LEAST. I have $10,000 left on my car. My credit card debt is at a total of $4000. I have another personal loan out for about $2000. It seems like a lot to handle. But I don't care!

It's almost as if I just don't care anymore? I used to worry what people thought about me. My hair, my clothes...etc. Now I don't. The part inside of me that used to be the "romantic, desperate for girls Fred" has been nearly extinct for years, but now it's like gone. I made out with this girl Giselle a couple weeks ago, but I didn't care. I guess that makes it more attractive to the opposite sex. Cause I'm self-assured in all that I do. I'm confident that in the end, I'll be exactly where I belong.

We're living a life where everything is evanescent. In the end, this will all be gone. We could wake up one day and just be killed BAM! It'll be over in a split second. Then what? Will we worry about debt? Will we worry about what we were wearing? We won't worry at all. So why spend life worrying about small things?

I love what I do. I love writing songs. If I could pay off my debt in full to the studio for every album, I would do it easily. I would live a life writing songs. Life is so freaking beautiful, even when you're sitting at home on a Saturday night.

I take life one day at a time, and I love it. Be yourself, be strong in who you are, and you'll be the same way. There is nothing in this world that you NEED. You just need faith in yourself.